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Endeavoring

When I start on a project, process, garden, or trip, I tend to think of it as an endeavor. I have my own understanding of the word, but I thought it might be wise to see what its background is. According to Etymologyonline, endeavor appears in English in the 15th c:

early 15c., "pains taken to attain an object," literally "in duty," from phrase put (oneself) in dever "make it one's duty" (a partial translation of Old French mettre en deveir "put in duty"), from Old French dever "duty," from Latin debere "to owe," originally, "keep something away from someone," from de- "away" (see de-) + habere "to have" (from PIE root *ghabh- "to give or receive"). One's endeavors meaning one's "utmost effort" is from late 15c.

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Okay, I tend to think of the word as meaning not so much a duty as the effort, or “pains one takes,” needed to pursue an objective or result of some sort. It is currently my duty to act as executor for my mother’s modest estate; but what I’m endeavoring to do is come to terms with being an orphan so late in my life, and to allow myself some minor mood swings, and to continue my daily activities–including writing. Because writing is so valuable when one is grieving. This is true even for people who are not writers, as James Pennebaker’s (and others’) research shows. [Here is a podcast from the APA as an introduction, if you are curious: https://www.apa.org/news/podcasts/speaking-of-psychology/expressive-writing]

This doesn’t mean that writing while grieving is easier for writers. It isn’t. We may be more disciplined about doing the writing. Or we may not.

And endeavoring differs slightly from trying. For me, trying is sort of experimental or exploratory. It need not have some sort of object, beyond the goal of gaining a new experience. I’m not trying to get over my sorrow or trying to get up and do what has to be done. There’s purpose to my activities around facing the day, weeding and watering the garden, and sitting down to think and write. Maybe the purpose is just to be a human in the world. Maybe writing is just part of my particular process.

I’m not sure where I’m going with this post. The object today is just to put words on the page, thoughts into my brain, and to write.

today’s light breeze
I remember
hearing her laughter
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Introspection & narcissism

In August 2014, New York Times writer David Brooks wrote about the differences, if any, between narcissism and introspection. His opinion column explored whether self-questioning and rumination might lead to self-centeredness rather than self-discovery; he begins the column with the concept of the personal journal or diary and whether that practice has value or not. (Certainly there are other methods of introspection, but for a literate society it is writing that first comes to mind).

Citing research from several psychological studies, Brooks states:

We are better self-perceivers if we can create distance and see the general contours of our emergent system selves — rather than trying to unpack constituent parts.

Interestingly, this suggestion more or less jibes with the multiple-levels-of-self version of consciousness as theorized by Douglas Hofstadter and Daniel Dennett.

Writing as a means to recover from trauma or to “make sense of the world” seems most effective when the writer puts some reflective distance between experience and feeling (see The Writing Cure), although James Pennebaker’s research argues that even immediate expressive writing can help psyches and bodies to heal. Brooks outlines three ways, different from the microscopic introspection of the narcissistic diary-entry, that self-reflection can develop into something other than self-absorption.

One of them is narrative, which makes perfect sense to me–human beings are story-makers. In fact, all three approaches to introspection Brooks mentions find expression in poetry, storytelling, fiction-writing, creative nonfiction, and in good journalism.

Creating our narratives from a reflective “step away” from intense analysis helps human beings to navigate the inner and the outer worlds.

I’m seeing this approach in action with my college freshmen this semester. More on that in a later post.